Buckaroo Junction

So many times in our Christian walk we can feel the Holy Spirit speaking to us but we second guess it. We explain it away or somehow think it was something we came up with on our own. A couple of months ago, I felt these questions tugging at my heart, "How would you REALLY respond if something bad, really bad, happened? Would you resort to blaming God, or would you trust Him? Where would your faith be?" Fast forward a few weeks and I end up, sort of by "accident" in a Bible Study that talks about how to discern the voice of God. There were so many things that I learned about the Holy Spirit's voice and how to discern when he speaks to us. All of these things, and so many other things God has taught me in the past two years were, I believe, preparation for what faced us yesterday.
Dave went to work yesterday morning and about an hour later came downstairs and told me that this was probably it...he was probably going to lose his job today (we had heard rumors several times before because of the sub-prime mortgage mess and the state of Citibank). The confirmation came after a meeting a couple of hours later- Citibank had decided to entirely shut down the home equity departments all across the country (hundreds of employees heard the same news Dave did yesterday). I think both of us thought that this probably wasn't going to happen as business had really picked up and it seemed as though Citibank was back on its feet again.
So, Dave will keep working until May 30th and at that point, he will be done. This lands all kinds of unanswered questions in our laps that are far too numerous to even list. I don't think either one of us have ever quite felt so unsure about the future before. I know God is in control. I know he has a plan for our lives. But at this point, I am very overwhelmed with all of the unanswered questions and work to be done. I keep thinking of a quote by Elisabeth Elliot-when asked what that best piece of advice she'd ever gotten was, she replied, "do the next thing." If I think about all that has to be done, I think I would lose my mind. All I can focus on is today and what needs to be done next.
We are still planning on moving back to ND. Our house will probably be on the market this week sometime. I pray that God will prepare whoever is to buy our little house we have put so much of ourselves into even now...that He would hand-pick them and guide them here.
And now I come back to the voice of God and his preparation for this day. I pray that now, more than ever, I will remain faithful because HE is faithful. I pray that we will have what we need to get through everything we will need to get through this and to hear his voice. Yesterday, in the midst of it all, I came across the 23rd Psalm and I got this picture of David writing it and how this was the work of his life. And I thought of all he had to go through to have what it took to write that Psalm. And when I opened my devotional today, this is what it said, "What was the preparation for Jesse's son, David, to compose songs unlike any others ever heard before on earth? It was the sinful persecution he endured at the hands of the wicked that brought forth his cries for God's help. Then David's faint hope in God's goodness blossomed into full songs of rejoicing, declaring the Lord's mighty deliverances and multiplied mercies. Every sorrow was yet another note from his harp and every deliverance another theme of praise. One stinging sorrow spared would have been one blessing missed and unclaimed. One difficulty or danger escaped-how great would have been our loss! The thrilling Psalms where God's people today find expression for their grief or praise might never have been known." (Anna Shipton)

"The Lord is my Shepard, I have everything that I need..." Psalm 23:1

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